365 days free

365 days of being free from these bags and daily debilitating symptoms that turned me into someone I no longer recognized. 365 days since I reclaimed my health and my life. Not every day has been rainbows, but everyday has been better than the storm daily life had become.

⁣⁣•BII IS real, even if it’s not currently recognized as an official diagnosis within the medical community. However, we ARE getting closer. ⁣

•It’s NOT in your head.

⁣•BII has a wide range of symptoms and severities (for me, most symptoms were brushed off as “normal” aging or labeled as anxiety).

⁣•Symptoms can appear immediately or take years to present.⁣⁣

The most commonly reported symptoms (but not limited to) are:⁣Fatigue/chronic fatigue*, muscle aches/weakness*, joint pain/soreness*, hair loss, weight gain/loss*(I experienced loss due to developing disordered eating patterns because most foods made me sick), temp intolerance*, ringing in the ears*, heart palpitations, shortness of breath*, night sweats*, skin rashes*, insomnia*, swollen tender lymph nodes*, brain fog*, burning in chest wall,vertigo, chronic neck/back pain*, peri orbital edema*, premature aging, vision disturbances*, liver/kidney dysfunction, headaches/dizziness/migraines*, mood swings*, anxiety/panic attacks*, symptoms or diagnosis of autoimmune disease* (I was diagnosed with hashimotos).

⁣⁣*all the daily symptoms I experienced and are now either completely GONE or significantly improved! (Still working through lingering hormone related issues and ptsd from illness.) ⁣⁣I have 2 ig story highlights dedicated to my BII and explant journey if you care to explore.

Before and after explant surgery .

If you’re currently experiencing issues/symptoms , I highly recommend you do your research and consider joining the Fb group Breast Implant Illness and Healing by Nicole, where 133k women share their stories of both BII and healing through proper explant surgery. And I am ALWAYS more than willing to talk with anyone about it. I am so thankful to have been connected to so many amazing women through this journey and have made it part of my life’s mission to keep sharing my story in hopes of it being able to help others. I know the deep, dark despair that this can take women too and I don’t want anyone sitting alone in that. There is hope and healing on the horizon, no matter how far the horizon may feel. ⁣⁣

I don’t need messages from those that have implants saying they are fine. I’m so happy that you are fine and pray that continues to be your path. This message isn’t for you. This message is for the women that aren’t sure they are fine or are wondering if they are going crazy because they are not being heard/validated and to let them know they aren’t alone. You are never alone. ⁣

What’s wrong with a little fitness and a whole lotta Jesus???

Someone recently responded to one of my stories and asked if my Instagram page is turning into a fitness & Jesus page. 

I don’t know them very well and I don’t know what they meant their tone to be. And even without the eye roll emoji, 🤣 we take words from a place of where we are in that moment. I deep sighed. I do sometimes worry I will annoy people with my posts/stories. It has at times even kept me from posting more than I have. But then I remember that I’m not posting for the eye rollers. 
I get this message and for a very split second I let it validate my fear and invalidate alllllll the other messages of encouragement, support and appreciation for showing & sharing my journey. Then I took a deep breath and formed my response that went like, 
“Hey. Thanks for reaching out. I don’t have any current plans to, but living the healthiest and best life I can is one of my main focuses so that’s what I’m showing. If that hits an uncomfortable spot and I am no longer for you because of that, I totally understand. Hope you have a great day. Thanks for your message.” 

Because I do understand. There was once a time, I had a hard time watching others do what I wanted to do, but (physically or emotionally) couldn’t. Or watching others do what I didn’t believe I was capable or deserving of doing. Lots of eye rolling went down. So I get it. And I’m not mad if you need to look away right now (or ever) for your own well-being. 
It’s always ok for you to unfollow or turn your gaze away from what’s not making you feel good. But also maybe think about asking yourself, what about it or why is it making me feel a certain way? And can/should I dig deeper to work through it even when it feels uncomfortable. Or maybe you’re not ready to ask yourself those questions and you just gotta keep repeating certain cycles until you’re ready to no longer repeat them, like I did. It’s hard, ugly and uncomfortable work so I don’t judge anyone from sitting in a place I sat for so long. 

Friends, I don’t know what this page will be. it’s my small corner of social media and it’s my story and it’s still being written, so only time will tell. But if what I am doing/showing right now makes anyone feel any kind of way, it is 💯 ok for you to turn your gaze and not follow along. 

If my faith & workout journey and progress makes you feel uncomfortable, I have a feeling once I really open up about my growth and how I plan to let it guide me….you gonna be reallllllll uncomfortable here in my part of the inter webs. So now may be a good time to make an exit anyway. 🤣
I have learned some hard life lessons in my 40 years of existence and this girl can no longer play small to keep others comfortable. Nope. Cannot do it. And that may not be for you. Now or ever. And that’s ok with me. Whether it’s ok for anyone else how I live and share my life, is not my business so I won’t make it mine. 🤷🏽‍♀️
That’s a message I hope everyone learns way sooner than I did. There’s so much freedom in knowing what others think of you has NOTHING to do with you (unless you’re just an awful human, which I don’t believe anyone wants to be that) and everything to do with where they currently are in life. 

100 days stronger


Over the last 100 days, I’ve ended up with some baby biceps, a 2 pack (that’s still kinda hiding but I know it’s there), less jiggly in my jiggly spots and that’s not even the best part….The gains felt on the inside are the biggest win. The mental, emotional and self love and acceptance muscles are straight flexin hard, yo. ⁣

It’s crazy. On the day I completed the #100dayproject AND my century (100th) yoga class, a memory popped up from this day last year. We were on vacation and I posted how I was desperately trying to choose gratitude and grace through the pain and frustration of my body constantly giving out on me. I remembering later breaking down because I was felt like I was failing in life and failing my family because I physically couldn’t be the wife and mom they needed. I lost who I was and didn’t think I would ever get to be who I knew I was created to be. ⁣

Buuuuut she back. With a little more sass, a whole lotta passion for living life and a strong desire to make some sh!t happen while working on nailing a graceful headstand without tipping over. Watch out. It’s all happening. I feel it in my no longer constant achy bones. ⁣

I also nailed a non graceful headstand that Laila recoded. Ps- she’s fired as my camera girl.😂 you had one job, Laila. One job. ⁣

Ready to go for another 100 days! Who wants to join me?!! ⁣

7/7/2020